I grew up in Western Pennsylvania, 40 minutes north of Pittsburg. I like forests because of this, camping, and such fun stuff Pennsylvania is known for. I had ADHD and a small amount of friends. I was picked on a lot in school because I tended to be a young little asshole with ADHD. Being made fun of generally pushed me inside and otherwise I was and am an introvert. I was held back in the 2nd grade and so had to associate with a separate set of classmates and that didn’t help.
I started out skinny and was called a poster child. Step-father’s abuse and having access to sweets made me fatter. Being addicted to video games means I didn’t get out and exercise and it added to that.
I found out I was bisexual after messing around with my cousin during 4th grade. I started thinking about a superhero character based on myself around 3rd grade. Having a small amount of friends and keeping to myself bounced between my step-dads abuse and being picked on in school made me focus on reading and writing. I played dungeons and dragons pool of radiance on the nes and made a fan fiction based on the kobold cave adventure you go on in that game. I started to draw maps of fantasy worlds, drew fantasy characters, and made a bunch of characters. I didn’t complete many stories.
I wrote my first vore story about a dragon eating a human. I also dabbled into fat concepts and characters in my fantasy story worlds.
I wrote my first vore story about a dragon eating a human. I also dabbled into fat concepts and characters in my fantasy story worlds.
I knew I was into fat fun when I would say to my cousin I would like to mess around with someone that was as fat as I was. That and when we played shirts and skins back in the 7th grade and we were separated into skinny and fat boys in PE. That was my favorite fellow fat boy fun experience of my childhood.
I moved out to Illinois back in about 1997. Not many knew my past obnoxiousness so I had a new set of classmates and a new neighborhood. I got some friends and all was good. Before I moved out I went full Christian and was until out of high school. Still went into fat porn, looked up dragons online, and played fantasy video games all throughout. I wrote a short story in high school that got me an award.
I then got into computers and went to vocational school. By around then, I got my first modem and found my way into sites like Fatnats, belly.co.uk, feeder.co.uk, dragonneo.com. I got on AlfandriaMUCK. I had been recording my fat self on VHS camcorder since before I moved out to Illinois. I continued doing this. Then I got digital cameras and saved these to my computer.
I dabbled into a wiccan type practice from DJ Conway “Magical Mystical Beasts and How to bring them into your life”. I went back to being a Christian up until my mission trip to Arizona the summer after high school graduation.
Before then I read Natalie’ Goldberg’s Writing Down the Bones and had the best euphoric high/ zen moment in my life from simply reading that, freewriting, and it happened walking over to the library when everything seemed to connect in happiness.
I went to college first for general arts but switched over to computers when I was worried about what future writing would bring. I got an internship job at Tate and Lyle but ended up having a falling out.
I was non Christian then. I began writing a story journal I called the Book of Particles that I considered a type of religion. It was based that when everyone died, they’d each become God’s over their own universe.
Then, before I had a falling out at Tate and Lyle I had found spiritual satanism and went with that up the antisemitism they had butted with the fact that ancestry.com said I have ties with very distant ancestor’s last name that had jewish roots. I found a website of a person that was a private practice spiritual satanist that was not associate with the other antisemitic spiritual satanists. Thus, I went into Chaos magick.
I worked base pay jobs, from Dominos, McDonalds, and Walmart.
Then I finished my original transfer Associate in Arts and went to UIS for my Bachelors for Literature. I was involved in many groups but tried to work at campus food service. Then I went back to Walmart for the summer. When I came back, I didn’t work but went to campus activities. I tried to do Xtube amateur stuff but it didn’t pay very much.
I worked for Kroger and went to be a substitute teacher for a few years. I was living back with my parents since leaving Tate and Lyle but lived on campus for my bachelor’s degree. My mom died from cancer not too long after that. My step-dad sold the house and I went to live with him for a few months in a studio apartment. I worked for best buy and then for McLeod Express doing Helpdesk/Tech Support. Then I had a falling out with McLeod Express. I had moved into a bigger apartment and had several credit cards.
I maxed out those credit cards, going to anthrocon for the first time on the credit cards. I tried to go back to substitute teaching and Walmart but could not. So, I decided to give up. I was planning to go down to florida, ditch my car, and just wander homeless. I was out of my apartment’s lease and went down outside of Miami. Then I texted my friend and told him about what happened.
I went back toward Illinois and was homeless for a week or so before living with him for three months. It was at that time, I was in the hospital for emergency hypertension that was found out when I tried to give blood plasma. I went to my doctor’s phyicians assistant.
I got a job when I am at now. I lost a bunch of weight and was down into my 180s. I moved out of my friends house to a studio apartment until I got a rental house in the town where I work.
I got into a deeper relationship with my ex-boyfriend but that didn’t last very long. He was a fat boy that wanted to lose weight but he was the size I was. I tended to splurge eat on the weekends and such. I did like playing with his belly. We ended up calling it quits though. He was doing some things that I didn’t want to be a part of and he was still married to his ex-husband and didn’t want to divorce him even though they had separated.
I looked at different religions, starting from Chaos magick. I tried to go back to my own religion. I still write the Book of Particles with AI assistance but half-heartidly believe in it. I am somewhat into Unitarian Universalism now though half-heartidly in.
I went back to the hospital last September after having a crash and fallout with my diet. I liked being fat, having a big belly, and the diets I were on was mostly starvation diets anyways.
Currently I am on a back and forth swing. I try to keep my blood pressure down but ping pong around. My weight tends to stay were it is as I swing back and forth. I am positive I want to keep my fat belly. I like looking at it in the mirror and play with it.
I switched positions at work into a highly stressful one and took anti-anxiety meds. So, I went back to a less stressful job. My adhd kept me distracted so I got onto a non-stimulant adhd med. On top of that I take a couple high blood pressure meds. I need to be on them because I found out that even if I am at a high or lower weight that my blood pressure spikes. I would need to be well near what my bmi says I’m supposed to be at around 160 to see my blood pressure taper off but that was too hard for me.
I started getting into Dungeons and Dragons. Then along came AI and pushed me away from Dungeons and Dragons and into AI co-writing.